I Learned Me Some Good!

I learned me some good this year....Oh yes a year older today. Bring on the quarter life crisis I'm ready. This past year is a little more significant than most. It is finally, a birthday that made me feel like I have grown. Past birthdays felt like I just turned 13 again. I was no longer a baby but not yet an adult either, always somewhere in between. Spent a couple of years posing as an adult, rather actually being an adult. Today I feel a tad bit older, and my gosh maybe just a bit wiser. These are the things that I learned along the way…

Anxiety and Indecisiveness, my worst adversaries of the year; valiantly defeated by actually making a decision and sticking with it. No regrets. In the past I was always just a little bit afraid to make a move. Precious time was wasted calculating each and every move, making mental lists of the pros and cons of each decision. Should I take the job or not? Should I talk to him or not? Tossing and turning losing sleep...And finally decided to stop thinking and to just freakin' do it and take a chance. No regrets. Having the courage to just the make that first step is the hardest...but once you make it you are on the way. My motto of the year: "It’s now or never!" It has pushed me to persevere and to pursue something that I want with a vengeance. Try and try again! I made mistakes made a total ass of myself but somehow made it victoriously. I learned how to follow my intuition. You gotta do what 'ya gotta to do to get there!

Intuition, aka “the tiny voice from within” pushing me forward. You can do it grasshopper! As far as I know my intuition hasn't failed me yet. If you feel it in your bones and your heart, then that tiny voice is right. Don’t think, just do it!

Life is really not fair. My mom always reminded me and my sisters that life is not fair. Life can be cruel but is never impossible to live life. Bad things happen to good people. It’s inexplicable as to why it happens, but it happens. Everyone has problems but just think that someone out there has bigger problems than you have. When you realize this, as I did, you stop whining and start living and become grateful.

You gots to express yourself girlfriend! I was always the quiet girl in class who was always told to speak up. I am still quiet that may never change, but this year I finally spoke up. Give in to feelings and just express it. Even if it means to express your self and not to expect anything in return, but just the utter gratification of just venting it out.

Its okay to be a little sentimental..Give into the moment you feel love, because it is this feeling that gives you that hope and the strength to get through to the next day. I always shunned senti stuff and often resorted to expressing myself thru my sarcastic wit. But somehow you unexpectedly meet people along the way that give you that warm fuzzy feeling. I constantly tried to ignore it but it kept coming back like a plague. I loved being in the moment when someone made me feel like I was special. It was a just a moment, but a moment I will never forget. Those “wipe that stupid smile off your face” kind of moments will get you every time. (yuck, being sentimental really does not suit me but what the hey..)

Over analyzing the situation will lead to brain combustion. ‘nuff said.